Absent.

[icebluenothing]

I've always wanted to see my sister. She moved out when I was very little, and on those occasions when she was going to visit, like birthdays or Christmas, I'd be excited for days at the thought of seeing her. That feeling has never gone away, not even into adulthood.

Not until now, that is. I got to see her on Sunday, and it was pleasant enough, I suppose -- I made myself smile and talk at all the right times, and if I hid in a corner with a book once too often, I don't know if anyone noticed. But I wasn't especially happy to see her.

Tonight I get to see kickaha, my oldest and dearest friend; he lives in North Carolina, and I get to see him maybe once-twice a year, if I'm lucky.

I keep reaching around into my heart for that place where I know I should be excited to see him. And there's nothing.

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I think I'm really in trouble this time.

Comments

[rocza.livejournal.com]

I don't know what's going on in your life right now, but just wanted to say I understand that feeling, and post a nod of acknowledgement and such.

Don't discount the effect of prolonged exposure to high heat on your moods... it can do nastybad things.



I hope whatever is going on, it resolves itself quickly, and to your satisfaction.

Ass Hot

[winterjaye.livejournal.com]

Rocza is right.. it can suck your very marrow of life.

I went through a long period of time where I just didn't feel things either. It is now starting to pass. I hope yours passes soon. : )

Can relate

[gwywnnydd.livejournal.com]

to the lack of excitement thing. Dunno if it helps, but you have all the sympathy and love I can give you, whenever you need it.

Before I Forget

[murphysraven.livejournal.com]

Red Orchids

Blackberry Liquer
Triple Sec
Raspberry Stoli
Cranberry Juice
Splash of Pinapple juice

mix to taste, taste till you fall down. :D

-Beth