Conquering sleep.

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Well, I didn't go to bed at 7:30 last night. Damn near, though. Instead, wendolen took me out for dinner, again, and I was bright enough to order coffee. It didn't make my headache go away, but it lifted my Weltschmerz.

Then we came back to my place and I finally showed her The Frighteners, one of my favorite movies and one I knew she'd love. She did. We didn't get to bed until 1:30 AM. Strangely, it feels like a victory. Continuing to fuck up my sleep schedule seems preferable to giving in to the desire to just sleep my way through sadness.

That does seem to be the form my depression takes, lately -- whenever I get really depressed about something, I immediately want to go lie down and sleep, no matter what time of day it is. It's kind of frightening, really.

Anyway. On another note -- I think I want to see if Third Place Books is hiring. I'm sick to death of the tech industry, and I've wanted to work in a bookstore since I was little. I'd be making a hell of a lot less money than I'm used to, but that would be okay, I think. I really like Third Place Books, and it's very, very close to the fabric store where both wendolen and treebyleaf work. It's something to think about.